烦...烦...烦

人，为什么要这么烦呢？
少烦恼一天都不可以吗？
头脑烦到都想要爆了啦！
想一些有可能，没可能的！
好想躲起来，躲在没有人认识我的地方；再开始找回那个真实的「我」。
很多事情我从来没有对自己坦诚过。
没有信心，没有勇气去接受那个结果。
只能听听音乐来安慰自己，只少让自己好过一点点......

刺蝟

刺蝟？？

大家知道吗？？

刺蝟是一种长不过二十五里米的小型哺乳动物，体形肥矮，四肢短小。爪子弯而锐利。眼睛和耳朵都很小，有一张突出的长脸和不断抽动的鼻子。

虽然身单力薄，行动迟缓，卻有一套保护自己的好本领；身上有短而密的刺，遇敌人侵袭会立即卷曲成球，以刺保护身体。
刺蝟身上的硬刺是它们的一大法宝，針刺是毛发的变异，非常尖，摸起來十分不舒服。

一只成年的刺蝟身上大约有五千根刺，隨着成長的过程，背上的刺也会不断增多，以保持一定的密度，所以一只特大的刺蝟身上可达七~八千根刺喔！

可是大家必需知道， 刺蝟的腹部佈滿细软的毛发，当卷起身体時，刺蝟会收縮全身的肌肉，使頭尾相拉，縮成一個圓球，敵人便难以攻击，這是刺蝟最有效的防范方法。刺蝟的天性较胆小易怒、容易紧张。

我就好像刺蝟一样，不是大家想像中的坚强。 只是外表长满了刺, 可是里面却是很软弱。 因为这样 这才是一种自我保护的方法， 不让自己受伤。 我渴望想要得到很多东西， 可是且害怕得到，害怕争取。 就因为这样大家只是永远看到我的坚强，却没人知道我脆弱的时候。我终于知道，原来刺猬是适合来形容我这个女生。 我想要....我渴望....我爱....却没有一样我可以得到。 曾有过的的受伤，变的自己害怕向前一步。因为相信勇敢向前就会有希望； 可是有了希望就会有失望，失望就是再一次的受伤。

最後一抹的微笑 在轉身之後
我閉上眼 哭了
僅存的一點點驕傲 華麗的外表終於丟掉
很徬徨很孤單 是寂寞或悲慘
一個人 該怎麼辦

像是刺蝟般防範 偽裝得勇敢
不輕易讓你 看穿
我以為可以很坦然 面對分開時不覺得傷感
然而將燈關上 一片無聲黑暗
轉載來自
心痛得大聲呼喊

我想我沒那麼堅強 每個女孩其實一樣
渴望著愛情的好 渴望被擁抱 卻都害怕愛讓人受傷
承認我沒那麼堅強 不過是一而再的逞強
小心將情緒收藏 比傻瓜還傻
刺蝟的堅強 全都是假象…
哭吧

暗恋

My mood is such indefinitely... but this what i had pass through... I dun have that courage to step forward. I dun want this feeling will suddenly disappear...

四目交接的时候 不要停留太久

 适可而止的问候 关心不能太过 

  好奇也别去探索 妒嫉只能深锁 

   如果忍不住寂寞 也不能对你说

  啊 好朋友  啊 我的好朋友 

   不小心的沉默 不想让你太难过

    我们就站在落地窗的两边 

     就算触碰也有了界限  

      如果跨越过彼此那道边界 

     是靠近还是更遥远

     相信我们走到另一个境界 

   搭肩高唱友谊万万岁

  要是我爱你变成了语言 

 什么会多一些 什么会少一些   

    就让别人去猜测 我们清白的很 

       就让自己去承受 那种清白的闷 

   就算我只是朋友 能不能有要求 

     如果会发生什么 也是我想太多  

       啊 好朋友 就只是好朋友

          不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过

      我们就站在落地窗的两边

      就算触碰也有了界限  

   如果跨越过彼此那道边界 

      是靠近还是更遥远 

   你会不会也曾闪过这感觉

    一念之间就要差一点

        要是我爱你 变成了利剑

          什么会被消灭 什么才会复原  

  那是我的底线 继续将你暗恋..... 

P/s: 我以为，我坚强度过；

我以为， 新生活就此展开。

谁知， 过了那一段甜蜜生活后，

只是...... 一而再的..........错过......

又再一次吗？

又再一次爱上人家啦~！
惨了......惨了......惨了......
明知道，他是不应该的对象，但我还是抵抗不了~

我已经没有选择了。已经陷入爱情海。

自讨苦吃.....没事干嘛要去爱上人家噢~！
人家看也不会看上你啦， 以什么条件，什么资格，我会去爱上他呢？

笨蛋的家伙~！

busy busy~

my curiosity getting high on why always get scold by people....

ok la... not scold, just tease lo...

but y always me o... dun u feel bored?

yes also people say....

no also people will say....

talk nicely to u, say i act innocent...

when i talk rude/ or wan scold bad word to u... u say i become so bad...

when u all wan talk to me...or get something from me... wah... sure talk nicely with me...

when there is nothing, i just ask something then will say i am NOOB... STUPID... CRAZY... HIAO...ACT INNOCENT..... this all word all is come out from u all mouth~!

wah.. then u so geng next time dun find me to ask something la... cos i noob ma... stupid ma... how i know so much~

then wat u all aspect me to be??

u dun feel bored, but i feel bored of it... ~

*did u all think how i feel that feeling when every single word that pop out from u all de mouth~!

beside that, i also feel sorry to some people recently that i keep rejecting the outing...

is not i dun wan to join the outing.... but i really lack of my time to prepare for my final exam...

this final exam is really important for me.. once in my whole life....

i dun mind wat u all wan to say.... i think my future is more important...

now for me... except me... only my future and my family is more important for me ...

sorry for some people....^^

hate this feeling~

recently, i hate people around me..

they keep tease me.. gossip me.. like nobody business...

is that any problem that related to me is your business??

is not ur business, Pls SHUT UP ur mouth~!

besides that, there are some people who like to say that..'a moi, u like this like that la....',

' a moi, u act innocent lar....',

'a moi... like this and like that...'...

hey BABI~! izit this is ur business ar...

my mom not even complaint im like this...

What right have you to speak like this to me....??

u my father ar????

u my brother ar???? [ he also never say until like that]

u my bf ar?? [ 那就分手吧~！]

i got my own life... i like to do what, i want to do wat... i love who.. i dislike who...

all this is non of ur business~!!!

pls, dun let me hear it again and again~~

i will tell u... sorry, our friendship can just stop at here....

可不可以不勇敢

你用浓浓的鼻音 说一点也没事
反正又美又痛 才是爱的本质
一个人旅行 也许更有意思
和他真正结束 才能重新开始

几年贴心的日子 换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己 哭一下子
看着你努力 想微笑的样子
我的心 像大雨将至 那么潮湿

我们可不可以不勇敢
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办

我们可不可以不勇敢
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白地放声哭喊
要从心底拿走一个人 很痛 很难

几年贴心的日子 换分手两个字
你却严格只准自己 哭一下子
看着你努力 想微笑的样子
我的心 像大雨将至 那么潮湿

我们可不可以不勇敢
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境都知道该怎么办

我们可不可以不勇敢
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白地放声哭喊
要从心底拿走一个人很痛

我们可不可以不勇敢
当伤太重心太酸无力承担
就算现在女人很流行释然
好像什么困境 都知道该怎么办

我们可不可以不勇敢
当爱太累梦太乱没有答案
难道不能坦白地放声哭喊
要从心底拿走一个人 很痛 很难

不勇敢

so 烦噢~！

recently having a lot assignment need to be done...
until very confuse which should i start to do 1st...
some need to keep edit...again and again...
beside that, this few day i also cant sleep very well...
but my face need to keep smile... just dun wan to let people know that why i'm so tired...
but today.. si fang suddenly ask me, why are you look so tired and look so pale... >.<
hahha.. that nothing~ i'm ok~ that is the answer that i give to her~^^

recently i dunno what happen to some people... i just want clarify that, we all are born in different place.. so what we all see the thing may be sometime will be a bit different~
recently i was being say by people that xxxxxxxxxx... this is not the 1st time he say me... really a lot of time... in front of so many people.. where should i put my face on? sometime i feel very 自卑~ first time...second time... is ok.. i bear with it... but for so many time... i really dunno what should say... sometime i really want to cry in front of them....but i keep telling myself that i cant show that i very weak.... last night~ i dunno what to do... i call my mum... i tell my mum, i keep cry... but i know when my mom listen sure will feel sad too... i got think not to tell my mom before... i really dun wan they know that her daughter 在学校被人家看不起~ 但是除了我的妈妈， 我真的不知道找谁谈天...
sometime when alone... my tear will slowly drop.... i feel that why we all are same human being... but why they can say people like din care other people feeling... i know u all very geng, then how?? Izit bcos u from JB then very geng?? night cant sleep well... because when every night when i try to close my eye... my mind will pop out that 画面~ and i have one nightmare before where i saw a lot people stand besides me, and laugh at me.... >.< i think may be this because i also stress with some assignment~
我曾经告诉自己，虽然我不是出世在一个大城市里，很富贵的家庭，得到很好的教育， 但我相信我虽然只出世在乡下，没有富贵的家庭；但有一个很幸福的家庭...家里的爸爸妈妈就是给我最好的教育。他们教了我人生道理，做人过得了自己，对得起上天；对得起自己，还有礼貌是最重要~

besides that, last few week one of my classmate suddenly ask me question that i never ever think before... they are me who is your the most best friend? as i know i got a lot best friends around me... but who is my best friend?? actually whose is the friend that treat me good? and who like to play me.. i really dunno~ sometimes really dunno how to response to my friend~ 谁对我好，谁对我不好~我还是傻傻分不清楚~@.@

Work and travel is my another things.... since i already decided to go... but i feel my heart still.... feel still got a lot things 放不下~ i still keep thinking that izit this is a correct decision?? will i regret when i go there?? sigh~~
not only this problem to fan o~~ how about others ler~really a lot problem to 烦.... sigh....ARggghhhh~~!

Year 3 final year~

now is my final year~
last semester study in INTI~ going to leave soon
not only going to leave the place that i got the most memory....
but also going to leave the place when i learn to grow up~ learn to be independent~ learn to know more and more people~ and a lot a lot...
besides that, i also going to leave my lovely roommate.. my LEO and ADVENTURE friends...
my 7 rangers geng~so on.....
4 year.... passss.....
when i 18 years old... come to INTI alone.... very blur....
NO friends... feel lonely... cry cos want to go back home.... homesick~
no everything done... is time to go outside... and see the real world....

JIA YOUS~!!!

E.M.O.I.N.G A.G.A.I.N

LONG TIME DIN ONLINE LOL.....

Sigh... what happen recently again and again~~
recently start to listen the emo+ing song again....
Emo+ing.... start again~
Recently... i dunno why.... may be...[喜欢上一个人了]..怎么办???
what should i do??? think for very long time d....should I do something???
not recently just can feel it... but very long time d....[i just remain silence for so long d...]
thinking for a period of time d.... just dun wan to happen so fast... since i got the bad experience before.... some more... i dun dare to do so... cos i scare to get hurt again and again....
some people say 暧昧是最甜蜜的时候，but i dun think so... cos i think that 暧昧会是痛苦的开始...一旦投入了这份爱情， 你就会是无法回头。
I know that i'm not a really perfect girl... but i wish i can become a perfect girl that everyone like and love...♥
from the day i come to INTI until now, i had change a lot a lot... 从一个懵懂的女孩，变成了一个满懂事的女生。[although sometime i will a bit childish.... just to get some attention and attraction from someone...]


sometime i feel that i very stupid, because that i know this relationship is wont happen... but i keep fall in love on it.... [stupid girl...>.<] some of my friend, keep asking me to take an action... but i dun wan... cos i can feel what is the answer d... [ cos i try to escape from the reality.... dun wan to reject by someone... it HURT!!!! Should I?? Should I??? Should I???? what will be his response???? sigh.....=.= when i post this, i not really think that he will know it and not aspect that he will know it.... cos i know will be rejected.... and i know what kind of girl that he like and love too.... 1st time meet him... he really a weird guy that i know.... his characteristic and everything is different from other boys.... when know more him, will feel he is very interesting people... feel to go more deep to know more about u....^^ [hope will got this day....]
he like a medicine for your everything... he will brighter your everyday....
is all about that ...mr. X


today.. emo+ing at STARBUCKS,LCCT... doing nothing... just keep thinking the problem... hope can faster to settle it~~ fall in love to someone that is impossible for u...


-STARBUCKS- -ENVIRONMENT-


-my drink- -my note- -ME-


L.O.V.E.. is like a coffee... it very bitter at a very beginning.... once u are together, it is a memory for u... just like the taste of the coffee... u will always remember... when u are free... u will always remember....^^